About

Short biography

Spiri Csilla is most importantly the mom of three amazing kids, and the wife of an amazing husband. She stepped on her spiritual path in the summer of 2013. She became certified as an NLP Practitioner, a Reiki Master, an Active Spirit Healer, an Access Bars Practitioner and a Meditation Guide since then. But she appreciates more that she became an intuitive. She can hear more and more that little sound that whispers to all of us. She is devoted to tell her stories and experience to those who are open to embrace them, so that they can live a happy and content life, just like she does, by listening to her inner voice.
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Hi, I’m Csilla Kallai, but aka Spiri Csilla 🙂 I live in Hungary. I’m the mommy of 3 amazing boys. They are 11, 9, and 3 years old. Most of the people react usually the same way, who see, that I have 3 sons. This reaction is this (please imagine it with widened eyes): wow, it must be very hard with them. And tell them what I feel that it is actually not hard. They are adorable, cute and clever kids. And I’m not prejudiced at all 🙂 Ok, there are sometimes hard moments, I would lie, if I said, there isn’t any. But I don’t think that I have more hard moments like any other parents do.

I love my life very much. I really live a life what I was dreaming about, when I was a child. What I was dreaming about? Things like this: to have a fantastic husband, to have healthy children, to have a comfy house, and of course to be happy. Well from these almost everything has come true, except one. I don’t have a husband. We just live together, haven’t got married yet, but what is delayed, may happen later. We plan to get married, when our third child is about 5 years old, so that he remembers also our wedding 🙂 But in this blog I”ll call husband the dad of my children, because it’s easier that way, and actually he’s like my hubby. Or maybe much more 🙂

So really for me life is super! I actually always loved my life, but really, it became perfect when my first child was born! I don’t say that I wasn’t tired all the time (it would be a big lie actually), but this was the most fantastic experience I’ve ever had. What I’m talking about is a thing that just parents can understand. And then when my second son was born, life became even happier. It was absolutely perfect. Perfect, but again a bit tiring for us. We thought that these two little children are enough for us. We have two hands, we want to give them all what we can, so we decided not to have another child. But as time past they grew and we started to think again about having another (last) baby. We were then 30 years old, so we finally decided that we need one more beautiful baby, for the last time. And he arrived, and our life is more than perfect now. Our sons are great, they love each other and I sometimes really feel like being in a fairy tale 🙂
And so what about spirituality? Actually I was raised up in a strong materialistic family, where nobody believed in God. Well, for some reason I did, but I really didn’t know why. I wanted to believe that there is something after we die, and not just nothing as my parents told me. So every night I was preaying for God, asking him to take care of my family, and my two doggies 🙂 And He seemed to do it 🙂 So when I was thinking about things like this: Does God exist? What is after death? Some part of me said, what my parents told me, that we are only body, and there isn’t something like God. I couldn’t actually accept this, because some part of me, very deep inside said: There must be something. It is not just about this little life here.  So these two part were arguing most of the time, as I remember back 🙂
But I had many problems with religions. I just didn’t understand why is up there God loves more people who goes to church every Sunday, and then they confess their sins, so they can go to heaven (and I know people who really make big sins, and then confess them, so it’s like they haven’t done that). Unlike me, who try to live a life where I try not to make big sins, because I cannot confess them, ‘cos I „only” have my conscience. So there is me, and I won’t go to heaven because I don’t go to church every Sunday…. It just didn’t make sense for me. It sounded like a cruel and absolutistic God for me. I didn’t like this version.

Then one day one sentence in 2013 changed my life completely. I won’t tell here how it was, because you can find that here in this blog post 🙂 link

So I had spiritual awakening and since then I’m happier than ever to know that we have life after life, we are eternal beings.

And for now you could find out, that I believe in reincarnation, I believe that we create our own reality, so all these new age stuffs 🙂 And this is so calming for me.

So at last, why do I write this blog? Good question. Just want to share my experiences, and also I want to know about your experiences. One main reason is that I want to share my dilemmas which I have, and I would really love to read your opinion about them. These dilemmas for me are mainly about how to attune spirituality and child rearing. Because before my spiritual awakening, I had strong opinion about child rearing. I thought that I know how to do it, and life just proves me that I do it well, because my kids are great so far. They know exactly how to behave regardless where they are. They know what they can allow themselves with us, with my mom, with my dad (they got divorced, that’s why I mention them seperately), with my husband’s parents, and also they know exactly how to behave in school and in kindergarden. So that’s why I thought that if someone knows, how to bring up a child, then that is definitely me 🙂 But taking spirituality into account, I have doubts! I didn’t change many things in my educational method, I’d rather put spiritual rituals in our routines, and we talk a lot about these things. For example if they have problems with someone in school or kindergarden, then we try to meditate on it, send secret message for them, so things like that. But regarding to child rearing on the whole I stayed that mom who I was. And if you asked what kind of mom I am, I would say a little bit stricter than the average now. But I don’t think that I am strict actually, but rather trying to be consistent. The boys actually love their childhood very much 🙂 But my great dilemma is, that if they behave actually everywhere, except for our home, is this good for them? Because actually they are who they really are only at home, and that’s not good. The old me definitely would have said that this is more than good like this. Now I don’t know. I’m still searching for the answer 🙂 Beacuse we chose to born to Earth, and we have societies here, which we have to conform. So I can calm myself this way 🙂 And also on the other hand I see that almost every boy in their class fight, and rude to each other. And they are not, they are just not like that. They don’t hurt others. So if I see this aspect, I calm myself again 🙂 But anyway I’d like to share these thoughts with you, and I wait for your opinions, experiences.

And some more reasons of this blog: My hubby said sometime, you should share your life in a blog, a proud mommy of three great boys. Then also the teacher of my eldest son said that I should write a book from educating my children. And months after these signs the feeling has come: I really should do this, the inner sound told me 🙂

The other main aim is to create a community, where spiritually awakened mommies share their experiences. So we could just inspire each other 🙂 Also I want to help those moms who are open to these spiritual things to allow more and more to their life. And also to convince skeptical moms, because I know how great change was in my life, when I started to believe (not just deep inside). I remember that I had lots of fears and worries inside me, and when it happened I let a lot of them go. It obviously doesn’t mean that now I don’t have any fears and struggles, but much less, than I did. And here comes another goal with this: I don’t want you to see only my happiness here. I’d like to share with you the hard things as well. Hope you’ll join me on this journey 🙂